Once again, today is either really long or really short, depending on where you live. I’m your host, Nathan Hewitt. Let’s meet today’s contestants:
I wasn’t as active on my website over the last few months, but I did put together a piece called “Mercy, Transformation, Abolition, Hope”, an introductory perspective on prison abolition.
I’ve also continued to add here and there to my little Library page, including a very incomplete list of documentaries. Lately, I’ve been going through Werner Herzog’s work. (I’ve finally forgiven him for kidnapping Baby Yoda.)
A couple months ago, I experimented with making some beats.
I’m also listening to music a lot lately, perhaps in part because I set up a Subsonic server for my music collection. Here are some of the things I’ve been vibing to lately:
- Yaeji & OHHYUK mix on NTS radio - Butterfly 3000 by King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Pineapples at Dawn by Mal Devisa, Sajo Jefferson, and the Radio on Mute - Earth Bow by Sarah Louise - GOLIATH by Jonas David - Vast Ovoid by Devendra Banhart - Heavy Electronic Pacific Rock by Valerio Cosi - Musique Nada by Saint Dismas (thanks to Nate C. for the rec) - Everything by Ichiko Aoba (thanks Cody for the rec)
Things falling apart is a kind of testing and also a kind of healing. We think that the point is to pass the test or to overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy.
~ Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart
A month ago, things fell apart. My partner of five years decided to move on.
The next day, at the suggestion of a friend, I took a train out to the ocean. I put my feet in the water, felt the sand between my toes. I walked south - away from the home we made over the last three years. It was hard to turn around and come back.
Since then, amidst all the pain, fear, grief, and confusion, I’ve had to face up to what happened and think about how I want to step forward into the unknown. I try to remind myself: things come together, and they fall apart. And even the “the falling apart,” itself, will eventually fall apart.
By the time you get this, I’ll have moved most of my things to a new apartment in Ridgewood, Queens, NYC. I’m living with a (female) welder and (male) flutist, friends of friends of friends of friends, for at least the next few months. I’ve heard it’s a pretty rad neighborhood, with good food and music, and I’m now a lot closer geographically to several of my friends in the city.
The summer was already going to be a transitional time for me, since I’m also quitting my job with Donorly in early September. The idea is that I’ll focus all of my energy on Open Collective moving forward, part-time at first, but ramping up my hours.
The team at Open Collective is amazing, and I’m getting really excited about some of the ways we are engaging with the solidarity economy. I’m also engaging in that space individually volunteering for Ampled, an artist- and worker-owned Patreon alternative. We will see where all this leads!
When September rolls around, I’m planning to go on a cross-country train trip - and it might be a long one, depending on how I like the lifestyle. I’m hoping to see some great people (like you) along the way!! (Can I visit? But seriously…can I?)
Here are some other things that are relevant/cool/wild/random:
The US is opening up! Old news, but I donno, weird to do a newsletter without mentioning that. I’ll see you out there.
All my love, Nathan
P.S. I invite you all to respond with your own little update - I’d love to hear how you’re doing. And I’m serious about maybe swinging by to see you in person in the fall.