sept 13 2021 - neck systems
we're really not gonna be able to virgo girlboss* our way out of this one, huh? 🥲
happy first quarter moon in Sagittarius! happy virgoszn!
do u have ~functioning systems~ in place? 🥰
me neither!! 🥲
i did strain my neck over the weekend. it's currently drenched in capsaicin, so I feel great!!! 🥰
i like to pride myself on taking care of my body in a systematic way, except, of course, the system has flaws 🥲
this particular kind of neck pull happens to me ~1x/ year ish, at most. i can't tip my head back for a few days and then I'm fine!
of course, a question is, what had accumulated so that just trying to gargle some mouthwash brought me such agony??
the body is weird and dysfunctional is the short answer 🥲
elides cheesy metaphor between systems of body care and maintenance and failed systems of world care and maintenance
but who knows! i warm up my neck pretty good every day. i let it loosen and get hot on its own. for another few days, I'll need the aid of topical drugs 🥰
a medium answer/proposition? this annual-ish reset reminds me where vertical is (ofc the spine is curved!!!), and rly, thankful i don't often have to doubt where my neutral spine is (i know, there's no neutral, etc.). it is right here 🥰
they call this ~reframing~ LOL gbye!!! 🥲
while it heals, I've also convinced myself that keeping my neck upright on this little spine of mine is a durational exercise, a lengthy space hold if you will. I can only lie down and sit up with my head aligned on my spine. release technique??? letting my skull go??? not on my neck! (for now!) 🥲
anywho, hope you're taking care of ur necks, ur pelvises, ur shoulders. don't be weird and make a system (unless) but oomph, give urself some heat! some breath!
been celebrating many a virgo bday this szn and am reminded why i love virgos all the time. as opposite to my sun sign, y'all really remind me who i am and we love these friendships 🥰
I'm reminded that I'm ~not~ a systems gal, not a pro-con list boss by default. i am a loose-necked, whipping in the wind kinda thembo and the system here is we chase that feeling everyday 🥰🥲 especially post-this-neck-strain!!
some essays / the latest in #bennyboosbookclub
Winking Away Diasporic Anxiety: On Anthony Veasna So’s “Afterparties” - for INTO
The Embarrassing Whiteness of Being in “The Atmospherians” and “Bunny” - for INTO
some artist q+a's from this spring
Artist NIC Kay seeks balance during the pandemic - for ESPN's The Undefeated
That Feeling of Up: Kyle Marshall on RISE - for the Shed
a q+a edition of #bennyboosbookclub -- coming soon! 🥰
here's a photo of some lost animal crackers i found at the top of a hill 🥲
ID: 20ish animal crackers scattered on dirt and stone ground with a twig and tufts of grass between. in bottom half of frame: my lower legs and feet
not srry i missed out on August slushee,
🥰🥲 benedict
PS. *Girlbossing is prlly actually capricorn energy isn't it? Gaslight = scorpio? Gatekeep = cancer? somebody @ me!!! happy first quarter moon in sagittarius !!