may 19 2021 - heart throbs
hi slushee stans!
did we make it to buttondown okay? welcome!
the first quarter moon entered virgo – we’re feeling calmly systematic, in control but not too self-critical over the assessment. yes, we!
i think this is the first time i’ve sent two slushees within the same sun szn – farewell taurus szn! you’ve been luxuriously too much, steadily overwhelming, and to top it off, casually stubbornly about it!! i love you and am happy to say farewell to you till 2022 !! mwah!! 😘
since i last wrote, the rugged calluses on my hands have thickened, roughening my every touch. one on the inside of a finger even split, leading to an infection that has since been cured, but, and, well, yet, so, yeah, absolutely, the joke is always on me 😘
luckily, my cherished zebra gloves did reappear - don’t ask where!! but since u asked, here’s a photo of what’s left – more splotch than stripe rn :/
* ID: workout gloves on hardwood floor - white background with dark splotches*
as we enter this spring time, thinking as always about ~what it means~ to be a hot thembo in public, the way that people (mostly men, ofc) hit on me differently when the sun’s out and my skin’s out haha 😘
it’s hard being a heart throb, but i’m sure my time will fade eventually and someday, i’ll be less visibly hot and just …
/// ~~ ur monthly reminder that these slushees are SLUSH read quickly and don’t overthink it 😘 ! ~~ ///
i was stretching with a sweetie and fellow ~dancer ~ over the phone a couple weeks ago and, besides both being loose-hipped, we realized we both get the shakes when we stretch
i hadn’t gotten these fasciculations in a while. when i’m nice and warm and cooling down, my little muscles sometimes pulse and throb as i’m gently nudging the tightness-prone muscles as far away from the source as they’ll curve
i’ve never worried about these little throbs. they feel good. i’ve told myself they were just doing the work of restoration and lengthening, tiring and relaxing, being their own massage chair. i dare u to tell me i’m wrong 😘 b/c honestly, it feels good, feeling the work of my muscles both clinging on and letting go with such vigor
disappointingly, the google was not very elucidating about what exactly this is – something something “don’t over do it” s/t s/t lactic acid s/t s/t myotatic reflex s/t s/t stress and tiredness – none of which i was able to parse definitively to self-diagnose (c’mon w_bmd, step it up!)
which, in this stage of allergyszn and vaccinenationalismszn and panasonicszn, has reminded me of the impossibility of parsing apart bodily symptoms – yet, i’m quite confident as i ressure clients over zoom that my sneeze was allergies, not you know, etc… but other discourses that are made out to be complex are actually rather simple, no? Free Palestine
my little muscle throbs may or may not be “good for me” but bidding farewell to taurus szn 😘with the sensations that feel good anyway, the body is ephemeral and feeling that little durational pulse reminded me not only how long it takes to stretch to let the muscle get there, but how long it took to get my body truly warm enough so that stretching could produce the throbs seen so readily on the surface of my body
yes the experts generally agree cracking your joints is bad but my fasciculations? i think we’re fine !!
being perceived so readily and regularly by too many people for just being and making their hearts throb for me? a personal AND public health hazard !! 😘
anywho, will spare you the photo of my infected callus and vid of my quads bouncing above my knees but ~the DMs are open~ lol
finally, i’m much less on twitter lately (it is not taurusszn pleasurable!) so would’ve likely missed this were it not for the reader who sent me this – i highly encourage scrolling thru the replies of this impt archive
i too, have participated in this crucial transitional choreographic step en route to stardom :)
ID: from L to R, me, Monstah Black, and Johnnie Cruise Mercer in promo image for “Hyperbolic! The Last Spectacle” from 2016. iykyk😘 (i’m unwittingly wearing disknees)
stay tuned for a special edition slushee next month ;)
ur fave heart throb
😘😘 bn