[AE.Personal] Why couldn't Murphy be satisfied with a firm suggestion?
I've spent the past several weekdays working on a draft of a newsletter that was meant to be a basic catch-up/check-in message about what's going on in my life, but I have been interrupted by outside events so many times and come back to update the now-obsolete missive that it inspired this tweet:
My life is currently lived at the intersection of “Life is what happens while you’re making other plans.” + “Everything happens so much.” + “Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.”
— Alexandra Erin (She/Her) (@AlexandraErin) April 20, 2022
Everything goes wrong so much while you’re making other plans.
Yesterday, I gave myself permission to sleep in and then start my day with an energy drink as a coping strategy for having run out of ADHD meds and for bridging the couple of days I expected the (already twice-delayed) shipment of them to arrive. I was feeling pretty good when I sat down to start my day... and then I received a message that oops, it turns out that the mail-order pharmacy my service had been using no longer serves my state and we had to find an alternative.
The service is also going out of business so I can only use them for the next two months, but I had been counting on having those months of mostly-steady access to ADHD meds within a familiar routine in order to be on solid ground for making my future ingredients.
I have some leads in that area and I also have a previously scheduled check-in with the doctor the service matched me with next week; it's not inconceivable that they would be willing and able to keep me as a patient without the service as an intermediary. I'm not counting on that, but I'm not writing it off, so I'm not making any moves until I've spoken to my doctor.
That unexpected bit of bad news crumbled what resolve and focus I did have, but under the heading of all's well that ends well, I was able to get the prescription filled at a local pharmacy late in the evening and am back on my meds this morning.
At this point, I don't see the "folks, it's been a time" draft I've been trying to pull together worth salvaging in and of itself. Parts of that sprawling, oft-edited missive will go into actual newsletter updates tomorrow and Friday, focusing on specific things I do want to update people on (NiNoBilMa, and other short to medium-term plans), and then next week I'll be looking forward rather than backward.
For now, I'll just say: my life kind of sucks right now in a lot of ways, specifically in ways that make it hard for me to make plans and carry them out, but I'm still here, still muddling through, and trying to get my feet back under me.
More soon.
-Alexandra