It has been exactly seven months since I last used this thing, whoops. In my last post, I mentioned doing a couple of things as future plans. Have I done them?
Well, of course not. I only think I’m a professional only when the Universe allows it.
Self-deprecation aside, I have done at least one thing: publish the Max/Magnus story for S2B2! It’s How Soon is Now? and if you’re dying to know where this lands timeline-wise for everyone in how can Heaven love me, well, I made the mistake of submitting this and forgetting this is easily two-three years into the three’s relationship…whoops again. I realized this once I submitted it because of how long it is. Hadda write for everyone who didn’t know, you know? (And that was the intent!) I’m almost sure that’s why it’s probably hard to get into it…
Here’s the AO3 version if you prefer that or the version on my site. I haven’t read it since I submitted it. And I’ll have to anyway for edits for the published hybrid book, since there’s stuff in it that will seem “repetitive” inside that. Unless I just leave it for character thought processes…But that’s down the line at this rate.
To continue the S2B2 news a bit, I also did the cover for their 108th issue! I need to update my site gallery, sheesh. But that was fun to figure out! In lieu of copy/pasting a bunch of stuff and making this so much more longer than it needs to be (wow this is why people update frequently, ain’t it), here’s my thought process about the cover! TL;DR: I went for surreal symbolism again~
I haven’t worked on the other prose pieces to release them as individual PDFs. Besides general scheduling issues, my mind wanders from project to project, so it means I work on a bunch of stuff at once and eventually finish ONE thing. Yay. xD That said, if you were ever interested in my horror story for S2B2, a ghost without a soul is also up on AO3 now. One of the now future plans is to rehaul my site to better organize my works, including prose, so it’s not on there yet. Kinda disappointed the story’s been mostly ignored in the long run. I didn’t make it with the intent to “catch” readers in the Ulterior Motive way but it is surprising to me that it has elements that folks online claim to love and then nothing. Maybe it’s because it’s F/F. Maybe it’s Maybelline.
(No, we’re not doing the M/M vs F/F wars. It’s more complicated. But my mild take is that F/F ppl complain too much and don’t promote the thing anyway when the thing is served on a plate to them. Because all they want is to complain. :v )
RARE KINKS? I THOUGHT THE KINKS’ CATALOG WAS COMPLETE!
What else…oh yeah, I ended up participating in Rare Kink Buffet this year. I found out about it this year, and I think it’s the kind of fiction event I prefer for sure. Everyone puts in a claim, and you just pick which one you want but nobody’s really punished for it (until the names are published and you see who claimed it and didn’t do the thing, oops)—and to boot, VERY friendly to original works. I have a funny joke in that I claimed like 10 things, had to drop 8—I kept two in case I could do two. But I was planning to drop one more just to only submit one because I didn’t have that much time. Then I had a bout of inspiration and ended up doing two!
Then I saw that one prompt I had dropped but really like…had no claims. And I said NO! It’s cute and it needs a response! I ended up having some time for it too, not as much as I liked because I did art for it really quickly, but people liked it, so I’m content.
I have not posted these on the Heaven site yet because I have been that tired, haha. Here they are!
“Out of Control” — this is an Astraea/Magnus story wherein the prompt was a cis woman with a big clit/any pairing, with some optional, added factors like cunnilingus and clit erection..dawg, what, this sounds like a challenge, I’m researching this for SURE. (RIP my internet searches.) I’ve mentioned once or twice somewhere that Astemar actually has a big clit, so this seemed like the opportunity to finally write about that. But I also took it as an opportunity to finally write Magnus as the switch he is (mind my phrasing): having a subby wife vs dommy wife :v (This will make no sense to anyone except me, in terms of showcasing the change…) Astraea is many things, including being way taller and stronger than Magnus. To paraphrase a quote of his from this story: he likes to smash and he likes to be smashed. So. There you go :y
Here’s the summary I tried to write lol:
Astraea, one of the most powerful women on two different worlds, has just saved her son from a troublesome kidnapper--that is, if your definition of 'saving' involves beating someone to near death. However, once she and her son escape together to a familiar location, Astraea will have to consider whether she truly feels relieved or whether, put simply, she needs to accept the embrace of violence through dominion.
(Or maybe she needs a hug or something, who knows.)
“the bottom drunk tops furiously” — this is a Max/Magnus story wherein the prompt was basically to write a trans man topping a cis man—with the added caveat that in this case, top = penetrating partner (in any way). A lot of how “sexuality and behavior works” is one of the themes I tackle/want to tackle in the Heaven project, and as someone who doesn’t really subscribe per se to the top/bottom discourse (but uses the language for better understadability), I again saw this as an opportunity to see what happens when Max basically does something he doesn’t do: be the leader!
Also saw this as an opportunity to write Magnus being the needy little bottom he can be if you let him, just like with Astraea…wait…is that a pattern…?
(I don’t know, you decide!)
I actually had planned to end with this being fully drunk sex. The issue I had is that I wasn’t sure if the person would like it, since there was no Do Not Want listed. To err on caution, I basically made it more comedic (well all three of my things were more comedic in nature) and rejiggered it to have Max just experiment with all his senses in tow. Maybe one day I’ll do another turn with “proper” drunk sex.
Here’s the summary that I once again tried to write:
A bet turns movie night turns drunk, and Max finds that he gets more than what he bargained for when his subconscious betrays him!
“Magnus Jr. Gets a Makeover” — art only, featuring Astemar, Magnus and Magnus Jr (aka da dick). The prompt was painting or drawing on genitals, in any shape you wanted. Time to depict Astemar being “weird”, hooray! This is the cute one I mean that nobody else did.
I almost made this be instead Kumiko and Ryuj, from my Something is in the Air story, which is the sequel to Heaven. But the muse, she still wasn’t back from her vacation for them :( Which sucked, because between Astemar and Kumiko, Kumiko is waaaay more willing to do this. Astemar is a little too Why Though? for most things…but if she thinks it won’t come back to her, she’ll try something cute like this. And to make it weirder for you all, it’s funnier for me because Kumiko is Astemar’s daughter…Maybe it’s all in the family to like drawing on your lover’s body. (But to be fair, it’s fine if you think this factoid is weird, very understandable to be weirded out.)
But Astemar is eccentric in her own way, so it worked out, I think.
FANFICTION IS BACK?????
I haven’t done anything fan-related in a long time…I kinda have to come back and put up a notice on my Pumpkin Scissors fancomic that it’s on undetermined hiatus or something. As much as I try, I haven’t been able to work on this both due to time and lack of energy I have for it. This is why I don’t try to do fancomics, I often lose interest in them fast but since this was the first one where I reached far enough to finish a lot of pages for it, maybe it was the exception. I often think that if I were in Japan, maybe I could have had the “atmosphere energy” for it but alas. I just feel bad because it’s the only comic thing I have that has a lot of pages but it only “proves” I can’t supposedly finish a thing (even though I have shorts on the site). I also just feel bad for my Japanese fandom friends on leaving them hanging…;_;
That said, I did write up a story for Limbus Company the video game, specifically the pairing of Don Quixote and Heathcliff. Why? IDK man, the muse, she bit me when reading a thing and I went (kool-aid man voice) YEAH! Here ya go, Psalms of the Flesh. Two chapters’ worth. If you know the video game, this is based on their N-Corp IDs, aka the religious cult ones lol. I had a lot of fun writing it.
I actually have a short outline for another DonCliff story, I just haven’t been able to sit down and get it out. I want to write it, if only to not look like I can only write LC stories if they’re inspired by someone else’s. Irrational fear I know but it’s society nowadays. That and I came up with it after finishing Canto 6 and the brain mulled over some things as a result…R18 things, of course. Heh :y
I uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh think that’s it lol. I had more to say but this got pretty long already, so I decided to concentrate on the “prose” part for now. I might make another update later next month July with the “second part” of updates. If I don’t forget >.> Thanks for reading!